Closeted

          I wanted to make a difference, to persuade others to accept who I am. But because the culture and government in Malaysia is mostly hidebound, bigoted and straitlaced, I do not want to do it here. But all in all, I found that many in this country received wrong kind of infos & ideas and they tend to spread it to others.

          It does not just apply to heterosexuals, but homosexuals as well. One of my friends used to ask me: "Who's the girl in the relationship?" I reply:

"Asking who's "the man" and who's "the woman" in a same sex relationship is like asking which chopstick is the fork."

          But her response was: "Maybe only lesbian does this "differentiate" thing".
         
          ...
          No, even they (lesbians) do not.



          I did not know where she got the idea from, but I do not blamed her. Because I had encountered some narrow minded homosexuals in the past. They're mainly lacked of knowledge or they are afraid and scared. But then again, you might ask: "If I'm really that "educated", why don't you be the one educate them?"
          My answer to you is: I was never the 'teacher', I AM the learner. Is that good enough for your question? I cannot claim that I am smart nor have I ever read the 'How To Be a Homosexual 101". But I do know enough to not be easily influence by what others talk and say, especially the misguided parts.