Fear

          I can't stay here forever you know, I'm gonna be insane if I try. And I hate it when people think I'm gonna stay with them forever. How selfish can you be, really? 

          Maybe instead of trying to convince others that you are good to me, you can ACTUALLY be nice to me for once, not because you want to "show" others how nice of a parent you are. 

Whatever, I'm tired anyway. 

          Why do I still running this blog even though I know you will never gonna watch it? Oh well, you would not change a single thing even if you follow my blog anyway. Nothing can change your stubborn tiny mind anymore...

          Because of you my life is a mess, my future is confuse as fuck and I can't seem to find a way out. The only thing I can hold on to is a tiny spark of hope. A miracle. 

          Maybe this is the word I'm looking for all along. My heart is sick, sick of something and some place that I've never went before. With the thought strangle my heart everyday and I can do a so little thing about it.