Sigh

         

          I need a hug. A big bear hug, to hug out my insecurity.

          I don't always tell others how insecure I feel in real life, my college friends think that I'm a rich, confident, easily anger person. Because I have hidden so well, they did not know what the fuck is going on in my life, they did not even know my struggle to achieve my dream. 

          Besides that, life always giving me shit when I want to achieve something big. Before you going to say something, don’t even try to give me a lecture about god is training me to be stronger this sort of bullshit. You know that is not true and it’s only use for comfort people who are dumb enough to believe that.

         In short, the main reason that causes me to type this blog is probably the loneliness that asked me to. Sometimes, I felt like I am better left alone, but other times, I want somebody to remember me.