Back to zero

Just when I thought I've got everything under control, things are starting to fall apart.

There must be something wrong with me, whether it is my resting bitch face or my general attitude towards people. It keeps people away from me, they don't want to talk to me or gets to know me better. People think I am a bad person without given me a chance to prove that I'm not. I am also always that one guy that nobody wants to sit with in every occasion.

From my observation and experience, I found out that people like to think I am an easily angered person or a person that likes to complain (even though I am totally NOT). I have been trying hard to change this image but it just doesn't work very well for me, I have no idea what I did wrong along the way. It just seem like I emitted some sort of energy to keep people away from me.


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Recently I got into (and out of) a *very* short relationship, it lasted about a month and he did not have the balls to say the words in the end. But I got the clue from his lack of response and decided it may be best for both of us to just not to talk to each other anymore. It should have been a red flag from the beginning, because he is proud of his 'passive-aggressive' attitude ever since I met him, I do not feels sad or heart-broken because his self-centered trait makes me feels like we're not in the relationship to being with. Maybe it is for the best, but since all of my friends from Diploma went back to their home country and my other friends from outside the school is from my ex-boyfriend side, I am once again left friendless and all alone.