Even now

Stupid?

Stupid is watching all of your friends make plans for their future
and realizing that you have none at all.

No plans, no college, nowhere to go.

All I have here is everything that I don't want, and...

And I have no idea what I'm doing.

1 Day 24 hours 1440 minutes and 86400 seconds. I've wasted most of it and the fear of getting old and accomplished nothing before I die are engulfed me bit by bit everyday.

Though, it is part of me to blame. Blame for whining too many times and not take much action. Yes, that is something I am aware of but for the most part I won't take any other judgement. Because no one in the world know what exactly is going on to me, everybody just want to talk JUNK and compared their life to mine. Which is, I found highly annoying and want them to shut the hell up for their ignorant's sake.

One more thing that I found irritating is when people called me stubborn just because I didn't do as they told or like. Example, I have to force myself to like a certain thing that I hate the most, otherwise I am defined as a 'stubborn' person. Sometime, people just cannot understand the meaning of "I DON'T WANT". What a strange and stupid world we lived in, huh?